Why do i do this to myself? I watched a movie about sad things and it is saturday and i am right now crying alone in my flat with only some candles lighting because it is earth hour. My laptop is of course working on electricity produced by hamsters cycling in a wheel. Of course.

I spent the evening as i wrote, watchind a dutch movie, which was very good but depressing. I cannot find the name in english but here you get the imdb link: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1365474/

This is the story of a happy couple meeting cancer and trying to deal with it. Cancer vs couple 1-0.

I will light the match this mornin’, so I won’t be alone
Oh, watch as she lies silent, for soon night will be gone
I will stand arms outstretched, pretend I’m free to roam
Oh, I will make my way, through one more day in hell

I will hold the candle till it burns up my arm
Oh, I’ll keep takin’ punches until their will grows tired
I will stare the sun down until my eyes go blind
But, I won’t change direction, and I won’t change my mind

How much difference does it make
Oh, how much difference does it make

I’ll swallow poison, until I grow immune
I will scream my lungs out till it fills this room