Vacation time

I am living a day like blondinbella: sitting in a cafe in Stockholm and eating breakfast. This is the day when I will challenge the French authorities to renew my id-card. It’s opening in 30 min so I enjoy the calm before the storm: do I have the right papers with me? And so on!

I was in uppsala yesterday and went then to my good friend J in Stockholm for the night. When we ate dinner and rebuild the world three times, I kind of missed our time in Eskilstuna: he was the one I went running together with some times and we often met for some chatt. Foreigners in between, we understand each other! It has been a long time since just the two of us had a so long discussion and the was good to update our status. I guess it’s what friends are for: listening, saying what one think of a matter and comforting each other if such is needed.

I will go back to linköping this afternoon, work some hours and then wait for M who is coming back from Ljungby. I am so happy about this new life, as the prince would tell: “it’s love all over the place”. Ok, time to prepare myself to meet the French administration. Wish me good luck!

Snow

The last time i wrote here, it was last monday. I was not very positive and actually, even if i wanted to make a difference, i woke the day after from the same side and i’ve been trying to make the days work. I have been travelling to Eskilstuna on wednesday and thursday and the days have been intensive. Friday, i was at home, trying to think how the saturday would be. It has been very stressfull for M as well, but we managed.

On saturday early morning, i walked to pick up the big car we rent to move M. It was a wonderful early morning, -18 degrees and freezing eyelashes. I am not ironical, it is very beautiful to see the sun getting up (had been a long while since i saw the sun actually!) and seen all the trees frozen, white, fabulously pure. I drove then to Ljungby and spend the day with a kind of lost M, packing all the stuff, carrying a lot and getting some precious help, both in Ljungby and Linköping.

When we were finished with moving, we went to the pizzeria, bought us some dinner and went home. Our home. With things everywhere, but our home. My dream came true. I really have to slap myself in order to believe it. M had to go back south on sunday evening, which means that it feels like usual so far, but i am longing to the first evening when i will come back from work and find him at home.

The beginning of this week has been really intense as well for me: Stockholm yesterday for me and Örebro today.It is really cold and it was foggy tonight, which feels with the humidity much more colder than when the sky is cloudfree. the three coming days will be full of things as well, so i’d rather go to bed now and enjoy this peaceful time. 

Monday

And the last without M living here for real. The program on saturday will be training-for-a-good-purpose and movingtime it is! I hope it will be as simple as when i moved to Linköping in 2011. I need to make some space here, in the bathroom, in the  living room and some in the kitchen, but i think that everything will go ok. The most difficult will be to fall asleep on saturday evening and believing that it is true. I feel like i was waiting for this my whole life! At least almost 10 years, which means one third of my life. Crazy!

Among other, we went to see Hobbit on saturday. Maybe it was a good film, i dunno, i slept like 5 times, so i missed some parts. We went then to eat in a tappas restaurant and my body said no to the digestive: Xanté, beurk! Tomorrow, it’s time for blood giving. This is also an occasion to meet an former colleague, will be nice to catch up!

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We had some crémant du Jura on saturday as well, but it was far to be our favorite: a lots of bubbles for sure but no taste. M is laughing at me because i am only posting this kind of pictures on FB, but it is actually a good way to remember what we’ve already tried and not. Plus that it is more classy than pictures of beers ;)

OK, it’s 20:00, time to go to bed and read, i want to finish my book! I will try to write a little more this week. I am actually taking the train on thursday evening, so hoppefully, you will get some post!

Have fun!

Question

I am lying in my bed, with technology to put me in relation with the world outside. A simple radio and my smart phone. I will by this post break a rule. When I started this blog, I decided following: never write a name of a friend or a relative, never talk about my job or my boss, never give my political opinion. Why? Because I am not a journalist, I am not bright enough to know where the words on here can lead me and my closest people and I don’t want to put them or myself in a difficult situation.

I’ve been sticking on these rules the whole seven years and a half this blog has been existing but tonight, I will break the last one. Oh no, you won’t know for which president I did vote in spring 2012 but maybe the things I will name will show you a part of me that is neither right nor wrong. Here you are, this is not an exhaustive list:

A new war every day on the radio Speculations with numbers and theory in the banks

People not carrying about relationships that may take energy

Double morality about ecology at every corner of the street Mafia leading the world under, world that is going up

Girls being raped by several men in India or Sweden

People being shot in small villages in Sweden during a normal peace time

Athletes getting some prizes for good work while other are crying about their earlier doping, doping that helped to win a lot

Artists with love of literature enthusiastic about dictatorships

People wanted to restrict others in their will to live the life they want to ( thinking of demonstrations against marriage between people of the same sex)

Couple getting married, divorced, remarried, redivorced, whose kids maybe have a very different idea of what a family is than what the society want it to be

People giving more money and energy to their pets than to their old relatives

People paying expansive money to run on a band at the gym while the government spends a lots of money to make the woods around beautiful and protected

Old jokes from the beginning of the eighties that are thirty years later sounding bitter because nothing changed for the better, people just outside our doors are still starving

Travels here and there just to get some sun while you don’t even know the history of the city you’re living in documentary about the Second World War on the public tv, accessible to everyone, and nobody that reacts and try to think of what we are living now I am far to be a perfect people, acting good in every situation but I am scared.

Tonight, when I listen to the repeating news, I am crying in my bed like a little girl because all this is so much bigger than me. But what if everyone was doing the same? What if everyone was living the cowardness at its highest level?

Is it time to make a real change, a good one based on helping each other, just a little, with what we have, starting to care without religion or dictator to tell us what to do, just our heart and the thought that one day, it may be you who may lay down? I am not better as everyone, and I am tired tonight and these tears make me look older than I am, so I will sleep on that and begin the day tomorrow in the same way I began this one this morning. But what if I would wake up on the other side?

Time flies…

I think i already used this title a couple of time before, just like a common expression to say that life goes on and that i live ok.

The beginning at work on monday was hard. Not because of the work itself but because of the clock which rang a way too early. These three past days, i have been ina vacuum during the whole morning. I’ve had been setting some goals too. I decided that i will run 200 km until april is gone. It means that i need to go out and run regularly and this will maybe help me to loose the 5 kg that i took over christmas. Good food, good wine, good times, but oh the noes, how heavy! I mostly hope that i will feel good too and maybe will recover the joy i earlier had to run.

For now, time to go to bed and read a litle, this is getting late!

Last day of vacation

Today is my last day of vacation. Then, it’s the week end and on Monday, work. M has been working since Wednesday and I was a little worried about how I would spend my days. Actually, it has been no problem: I’ve been sleeping the whole morning and reading or listening to radio program on the afternoon. Lazy days I tell you! On the training front: I’ve done a mistake and took my winter shoes with spikes on but all the snow has smellt in ljungby so no good shoes for running. For now: up and shower! Good day!

2012

One more year is gone and it has been full of life. I ended the year exactly where I began it, with the same company and if this was a gage for success, 2013 will be awesome as well!

In January, I did quit my job. It didn’t felt well and I also had to goose between two different and cool options. I took the safest one, safest for the mind, because I was not really ready to go in a new company, to move again and so on. I am very happy with this choice today. So I spent January cleaning my desk and preparing myself for a new start. I went a week end to Amsterdam with a friend in February, it was a good week end, even if I did not know that it maybe would be the last of this sort with this person. Then, when I came back to Sweden, I remember that it was very snowy and cold. Nice winter weather. I also said good bye to my motorbike, I hadn’t time for it unfortunately so I decided to sell it and it disappeared the day of valentine.

In the middle of February, I began at my new job and had a lots of travel already booked.

In march, we went to Germany M and I and we first went back to the place where we met in Darmstadt. Pretty much nostalgically if you ask me but it was very nice. It seemed like nothing had changed there and we really enjoid the spring and a siesta in a park. I had just turned 30 too. I did not make any party for that, somehow pretty anxious to become old. We then met a bunch of French friends in Frankfurt. And came back to the Swedish winter.

We went to two weddings in April, the same week end! I don’t think I ever was to so extreme weddings, these two being the opposite of each other. It did not give any idea to M and I am still waiting for him to propose… ;) if I remember we’ll, we also went to Stockholm to celebrate my friend J and this night ended with a long after party, it had been ages that I took the metro so late/early in the morning.

I cannot remember that much event from may, except that I fixed a surprise party for Ms birthday, with the complicity of J and we went to give some food to the seals. This was I think the most rainy day of this year, but the memory are warm.

June? Well I can’t remember a warm month but maybe I am all wrong? We spent midsummer in a island closed to  Stockholm and I got pretty mixed feelings about it, still now. I have now being celebrating Midsummer for 7 times and it never was a big party time somehow. Maybe I’m not that Swedish yet?

Juli, I was working. Not a lots of people at work, it was calm and rainy, perfect conditions.

In August, we began the vacations with a wedding and then drove car to France for a whole month of farniente, with a big party at the end. It was hard to come back but lucky me that had a nice program at work.

September was a month for a big fiasco with stockholms half marathon. I made a big mistake with energy drink and ruined a race with perfect conditions and pretty ok year of training. Even if I am still trying to run sometimes now, I am still so disappointed that I did not register to anything for this year.

October hum, what happened actually?

November the same, ah no, we went to Stockholm for a party and this was this same week end my wisdom teeth decided to make me trouble. Nice… And M announced me that he would move in with me.

In December, I just was to one Christmas dinner with work which is really good, I mean just to go once and not thousand times so that you get totally tired of the menu. Well I am already it but well, you get it. We spent christmas in France at
my sisters place and it was the closest from perfect you can get, even if my body is hating me! Just before to leave my flat for the vacations, I noticed that our both names were on my door now, this was my finest Christmas gift. Good bye week end in transit, hello normal life and M in my bed every morning!! :)

That was my 2012. It was a good year, except my anxiousness for getting older. 2013 will be exciting but for now, laundry!! Bonne année!!