Dissapointment

After a whole day of insomnia (it won’t be tonight since i am tired as if i climbed the everest mount), i went to work today and achieved a lot. I had to live a dissapointment thought: it was really foggy when the sun and the moon had an appointment this morning, so i couldn’t be witness from this love affair. Well, maybe it was the point, to meet far away from curious peoples eyes.

I also had to learn that the friend who should have run the Paris half marathon will not make it. I was like “oh no shit?!” because for me it has been like ZE goal since we registred and every step i took was just a step closer from the goal. But she thought it would be nicer not to make it and just being supportive. Well, i don’t think so. It IS a big jobb to take yourself around 21 km running but it is possible, even i did it last year. It would have been really good for our friendship to share this experiment. Well, as she told me “you cannot force everyone to make what you want them to do” (which was not my intention, i honestly thought that she liked running…).

It’s a little bit like in love, i feel like i want to break up, ut it is simply ridiculous. We just did not understand each other and that’s all, but i was really dissapointed. (how many times did i write this word now today? Yeah, i think you got it!). The good thing in that was that we talked (emailed) about that quite franckly and at least she knows what i think now and i understood (too late, that’s the disadvantage of being a snail) what she thought. Well, suck…

In order to comfort myself, i am spending the evening with the sexiest band on the planet: The Rolling Stones, in Exile in Eskilstuna.