If there is something that i hate (i think i wrote about it earlier), it is to let something unfinished. But since 2 weeks, i feel like i really have to fight with myself to be “my normal me”, the positive one, the one who goes on and does things, is social, tries to please people around.But no, it just feels like i can’t nowadays. And i hate this.
I hate to feel lazy and don’t go out to run.
I hate to feel like i have to repair myself everytime i think of something because my first reaction is negative.
I hate to not find a cheap train ticket to Lund for this week end.
I hate that french administration is so slow.
I hate that this french bank i have is so retarded.
I hate that my days are not long enough.
I hate to feel tired when i wake up.
I hate to have at least 5 books on my nighttable, waiting to be read until the end.
I hate to feel lonely when i am at home.
I hate to have my friends far away. My familly too.
I hate to have no one to share this, instead of complaining on my blog. (but maybe the line before was a direct consequence of this line).
My normal me would have thought:
Well, i will run tomorrow, it will be some light too.
To react is a good thing, then it is just to use the energy in a good way.
Maybe i should have planned this trip earlier and sitting in the bus in twice 11 hours may be nice to discover (again) Sweden from a high sitting place.
I should have change mydriving licence under the winter but there is nothing more i can do now, so i may just relay and seize the day.
I have money anyway, so it will fix itself someday.
Is everything i do during my days that important? Or should i take away some things and enjoy the one i do?
Maybe i should stop go out on monday and then read 1 hour before to sleep. But this was a great evening though! and the book is cool too!
I will be able to finished these 5 books in the bus on thursday and sunday, so what is the matter?
I am barely at home, so why should i bother about it?
My friends are not concentrated in one place, neither does my familly, so it would be difficult not to miss anyone. I may just be more activ to express them that i do care for them.
At least, when i complain on here are people not obliged to read ahah
Anyway, I am not a quitter, so i will keep on fighting. Eller hur Markus?
I’m not taking any more of this shit
hey professor, professor please
I’m not a student I’m meant to be an artist
I’m a drop out I’m a drop out
I’ve never finished anything in my life
I’m a drop out, I’m a drop out
I’m a drop out, but I’m proudFighters don’t quit and quitters don’t fight
Oh yeah you’re right
I’ve been a quitter all the timehey professor, professor please
I’m not taking any more of this shit
hey professor, professor please
I’m not a student I’m meant to be an artist
My friend’s new girlfriend, she’s so good looking
It is a bit embarrassing
how I’d like to sleep with my friend’s girlfriendFighters don’t quit and quitters don’t fight
Oh yeah you’re right
I’ve been a quitter all the timeYou should move abroad
you would love New York
there’s a million more girls worth fighting for
well it’s good for them
tell them all good luck
I know what I had and I know what I wantFighters don’t quit and quitters don’t fight
Oh yeah you’re right
I’ve been a quitter all the time
Wo ist das Meer? 